I was wrong! Totally wrong! Pathetically wrong! I had failed in the Theory of Machines subject again in the back papers and also had got one back in the 6th semesters. How can that happen. I could find drastic similarities in my feelings and feelings when any Bollywood heroine says "Mein tumhare bacche ki maa banne wali hoon...Tum Mere sath aisa kaise kar sakte ho..Nahhhhiiiiii!!!!".
However, the feeling disappears as soon as you go away from the academic section, the place where the results are put. This is another speciality of being in an Engineering college, after getting backs all these years you get accustomed to it to such an extent that, it does not affect you for more than 10 minutes. I assured myself, it is not the end of world here, I will try again next time and will clear it with good marks consequently increasing my aggregate percentage. It was an opportunity for me to increase my aggregate percentage. This is one of the methods I used all my engineering years to keep my self positive and optimistic among the hard fought competition around me.
In my opinion, the time in an engineering college is a mix of reality and innocence. On one hand, we are very much aware that there is a bad bad world outside waiting to try and crush us. We need to fight against it in order to survive. On the other hand, we have great friends with whom we hang out, laugh, have fun, though we know that these are all our fellow competitors with whom we have to play the rat race in order to come on top and taste success. Though we had shallow pockets we were the happiest humans on earth. We slept in rooms where nasty smells came in from the nearby stinky toilets; We believed that the single bed were meant for at least 3 persons; we were great fans of Maneka Gandhi and had dogs, cats and rats sleeping besides us in the same room. It was fun, just pure fun, it is here we understood that, money or any material things do not bring in such pure, pristine, uncorrupted happiness, we enjoyed during the engineering college days.
Here I was back again enjoying the college days. I had already forgot about the "Theory of Machines" subject which has been haunting me. However, as the saying rightly mentions - "The only thing constant in this world is change". I had to study "Theory of machines" for the third time now, besides the 6th semester back papers and the subjects from the 7th semester which added to the frustration I already had.
I went to the examination hall confidently. I was very much sure that now it is impossible for me to fail again. I knew about the subject to such an extent that I could have probably taught the professor himself with ease. He could have taken tuition's from me on how to teach that subject and references of the different difficult problems present on the subject. I had referred to most books available on the subject in the library and I was in a state of extreme confidence.
However, I could not believe my fate when I failed in the subject for the third time again though I had cleared the seventh semester with good marks. This time the theory of machines subject had gotten to my nerves, how can I fail in the same subject for three times when i had studied my heart out to clear this subject? I was unable to understand where I had gone wrong and this was a great concern. You can rectify your mistakes if you know what and where the mistake is. My state was like a drunkard who had the habit of falling into the same "nullah" everyday irrespective of whether he is drunk or not. Similarly I failed every time in the same subject no matter how more or less I studied.
So here I was in a desperate position when I had to clear theory of machines in the next attempt or I would have to loose 6 precious months of my career. Though I was not depressed, I was for sure concerned about my future.
Stay tuned for the last and most important part of the series.
However, the feeling disappears as soon as you go away from the academic section, the place where the results are put. This is another speciality of being in an Engineering college, after getting backs all these years you get accustomed to it to such an extent that, it does not affect you for more than 10 minutes. I assured myself, it is not the end of world here, I will try again next time and will clear it with good marks consequently increasing my aggregate percentage. It was an opportunity for me to increase my aggregate percentage. This is one of the methods I used all my engineering years to keep my self positive and optimistic among the hard fought competition around me.
In my opinion, the time in an engineering college is a mix of reality and innocence. On one hand, we are very much aware that there is a bad bad world outside waiting to try and crush us. We need to fight against it in order to survive. On the other hand, we have great friends with whom we hang out, laugh, have fun, though we know that these are all our fellow competitors with whom we have to play the rat race in order to come on top and taste success. Though we had shallow pockets we were the happiest humans on earth. We slept in rooms where nasty smells came in from the nearby stinky toilets; We believed that the single bed were meant for at least 3 persons; we were great fans of Maneka Gandhi and had dogs, cats and rats sleeping besides us in the same room. It was fun, just pure fun, it is here we understood that, money or any material things do not bring in such pure, pristine, uncorrupted happiness, we enjoyed during the engineering college days.
Here I was back again enjoying the college days. I had already forgot about the "Theory of Machines" subject which has been haunting me. However, as the saying rightly mentions - "The only thing constant in this world is change". I had to study "Theory of machines" for the third time now, besides the 6th semester back papers and the subjects from the 7th semester which added to the frustration I already had.
I went to the examination hall confidently. I was very much sure that now it is impossible for me to fail again. I knew about the subject to such an extent that I could have probably taught the professor himself with ease. He could have taken tuition's from me on how to teach that subject and references of the different difficult problems present on the subject. I had referred to most books available on the subject in the library and I was in a state of extreme confidence.
However, I could not believe my fate when I failed in the subject for the third time again though I had cleared the seventh semester with good marks. This time the theory of machines subject had gotten to my nerves, how can I fail in the same subject for three times when i had studied my heart out to clear this subject? I was unable to understand where I had gone wrong and this was a great concern. You can rectify your mistakes if you know what and where the mistake is. My state was like a drunkard who had the habit of falling into the same "nullah" everyday irrespective of whether he is drunk or not. Similarly I failed every time in the same subject no matter how more or less I studied.
So here I was in a desperate position when I had to clear theory of machines in the next attempt or I would have to loose 6 precious months of my career. Though I was not depressed, I was for sure concerned about my future.
Stay tuned for the last and most important part of the series.
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